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The Jewish Costs of Jewish Education

After much soul-searching, we decided that leaving Manhattan was not the right solution for our family. Among other things, the commute would mean too many hours where we were neither with our children nor working. And so, I went back to work full time. In addition, I moved from a career in the non-profit/arts sector, with a focus on social justice, into the private sector. (I want to acknowledge that I was extremely fortunate, in this economy, to find a job at all, and to find a job that I greatly enjoy. I am also acutely aware that the issues I am struggling with now, most women have to struggle with when they have their first child, if they are lucky enough to have any flexibility in their work schedules at all. I am deeply grateful for the five years of flexibility I had.)

So, I went back to work when my baby was four and a half month old. Now, six months later, I am stepping back to see what we have given up in order to give our children a Jewish education. Here is my shortlist: an extended maternity leave with my new baby, significant time at home with my older kids, my deep involvement with their schools, my almost-guaranteed presence at every play, trip and pre-Shabbat sing-along, Fridays home to prepare Shabbat meals and to prepare to host company, modeling a creative professional life devoted to social justice, money for college, for retirement, the ability to give the kind of tzedakah we would like to give. (To the last item, it dawned on me recently that as a recipient of some day school financial aid, I am a recipient of tzedakah; I question whether this is a good use of our community’s limited resources in the face of those with far more urgent needs.)

I am left confronting a great irony – has organizing our lives around affording day school tuition so our children can learn Jewish values turned out to be antithetical to propagating and modeling Jewish values?

Our choices are possibly also having other, less tangible repercussions. Like so many of my peers I have, since becoming a mother, struggled with the dilemma of working vs. parenting. For me, this broader struggle has included trying to figure out what kind of female role model, Jewish female role model, I want to be for my three daughters. What will they learn from how I balance my professional, financial, religious and parenting priorities? How will my choices affect the way they see themselves and their expected roles in society, the workplace, the Jewish community, their own future families? What will my choices, first in following my passions, now in prioritizing paying for day school, mean for them when they make their own career decisions?

So now I am left to wrestle with the question, is day school worth it? Or would my children be better served, and have a greater – or more significant – exposure to Jewish values, by having me around more frequently and watching me do the work I once did, not to mention having time to spend with a far less stressed-out version of me? Would choosing public school, in this way, actually enrich my children’s lives, both Jewishly and otherwise? What are the Jewish costs of a Jewish education?

How do your choices regarding work life and home life align or misalign with the kind of role model you want to be?  How do they align or misalign with your values?  What adjustments have you made along the way?  What frameworks or ways of thinking have you found helpful in thinking this through?

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